as expected, it's me again. it's just the forth day, and i must say time is moving really slowly against my favour. i can't believe i am not even half way near seeing him yet when it felt like forever. i guess absence does make the heart grow fonder.. and i'll tell you why this is true.

this afternoon, i was lying down on my back rather comfortably, with my eyes closed. somehow, it's as if i can hear him call out to me, 'baby..' i know perfectly well that he's not there, but for once, i am really reluctant to open my eyes. that familiar feeling.. it's just too precious to be lost in an instant. too precious.. how regretful.

every 'i miss you' that i say simply resonates with my heart strings and drives me to the verge of tears. i wonder if i can ever be the strong self i want to be, but there again.. for lionel, everything is worth it, girl.


i love you, and i really miss you.