your sincerely has just spent a long weekend with her beloved, and she's here to write some reflections for these times that she has left the blog vacant. darling, i hope you'll read this because it's for you.
4 March 2010, this day marks the beginning for both of us, and it has not come easy. i still remember how firm you were in wanting to prove yourself before you want to ask that critical question, and the two years wait you estimated. i also remember how hard i tried to convince you on as neutral grounds as possible on my point of view. you're probably right, it wasn't an impulsive decision. i've perhaps been waiting to say yes to you a long time before. you sure beat around the bush a lot before the question popped up, but that has made this lil part of our memory sweet enough.
i like you then because i just feel this affinity between the both of us, and i am interested to know how things will turn into. all the lil things that you've done like bringing me for lunch before school and taking a long bus ride to school with me on some days, they've made me attracted to you more. we might not have held hands in the most romantic way, but what is unexpected is always expected of you. i still remember how you made my heart race when your lips touched mine for the first time by accident. i used to think that that was pure exaggeration in dramas, but it happened, for real.
i like you more by the day because you know how to build the foundations of our relationship really well.10 October 2010, you kneeled and asked me to be your fiance. it wasn't because of pure commitment that i agreed. i said yes because i know i'll never find another person that i can give my heart to.. other than you. someone with a genuine heart that wants to treat me well. someone who is just so hard to forget. someone i feel i'm doing injustice to for not giving him the best he deserves.
i know i love you because when you hold me tight in your arms at the end of the day, all i want to tell you is 'you're the best thing that can happen in my life' and tears will well up in my eyes.dear fiance, thank you for giving me the most beautiful love story i can ever ask for. i'm proud of you, i'm proud of us.
many have probably heard of this before, that all love feelings in a relationship would eventually diminish to pure commitment with time. honestly.. i'll never agree no matter how many real life examples prove the case to be true.
"girl, you're too young and naive!" perhaps.. but i'm stubborn enough to believe otherwise. for the longest time, i based my thoughts on my intuition, and i do suspect some traces of self denial, like i don't want this to happen so i choose to see that it will not happen.
all that said, being with lionel has been the best decision i've made in my life. in times that everything seem so bleak, all he says is, 'rain, have faith'. initially i merely took those words on surface level, but i've grown to appreciate them when i realise that my faith is becoming a part of his. it may not be as strong, but it touches me from inside when all he did is for me, miraculously lifting every element of uncertainty and fear.
you can find another man who is capable of all the things he have done for me, but things would not be the same because..
bliss is lionel. lionel is bliss.
Nothing's Gonna Change..
(10.10am in lr's house and totally unaware that he's on his knees)
"rain, do you know why i ask you to come here so early? today is a special day and look at the time now. i really understand all that you're going through and not everyone can accept an army personnel as her boyfriend. being with an army boy is tough, maybe when they press a button i will have to go back to camp, or they press a button tell me i will be sent on a mission i will have to go. i have no rings to give you now, i have nothing to my name either, but will you be my real fiancee?"
peeps, i dont think you need me to tell you my answer.
this i promise you.. (:.. cause every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure (:
omg.. so cute!
they look kinda alike hehe!
so well camouflaged in there lol
hmm.. you prefer this?
golden retreiver spotted! so cool..
.. even before you're gone, how useless can i be..
