it's the end of the week again, a day when all feelings collide. the next time i'll get to see my beloved again is probably two weeks later, aww it's like so long really..

each time i get to last see him before he returns to camp, i'll reflect about what happened in the week behind the closed door. i hardly mention this to anyone, but the truth is.. i'll always end up tearing because my reflections are filled with regrets. my heart just goes out to him when i thought in his shoes. almost all the time he would have grounds to be angry, yet he chooses to repay me with more pamperings and put more expectations on himself.

i hate myself so much for that, but i just don't learn at all. i wish i could stop this loop of stupidity, and i am determined to. darling, no words can express how much i appreciate your heart so big that can accomodate all wrongs. because my smiles are more valuable than before, they shall be my first step!

thank god.. it's you i love :)